I have seen how fragile
And therefore how futile
I have seen moments like stars
Dotted out against the sky
Lost in time
I have seen this.
I have looked at the next moment
And known it wasn't there.
And just as clearly I have seen
Friendship broken by a word
Relationships spoilt in fatal revelation
Felt the loss of being from one unlucky blow
Personality diffused and memory distorted
The misconception that is truth
Expanded and exploded in the mind
Of delicious wine induced reality
Or velvet-wrapped warmth in that pseudo-safe place
Between sleep and wild dreams.
I have seen how fragility falls
So I know how closely futility
She slid Alice-like onto the beach watching the buildings and people tower above her, shrinking her. Laying flat out she felt the pebbles making little round hollows in her back and pushing into her spine with exquisite pain pleasure, distracting, distracting. The great black hole in the pit of her stomach was drawing her in and she would collapse into it, emerging as something different.
She had been here before, with someone else. A memory drifting across the circle of time, she could feel his body breathing life into her, shut her eyes and remember, freeze time for just a second.
'No push it away, its gone now, leave it, leave it'
The b
I carry your words
on my shoulder
and you in my head
almost all
of the time.
I would not choose
to be
this way.
Late at night
I pretend
you are here,
leading to
some interesting fantasies
which leave me weak
and marked.
And I imagine
you curled
close and safe
our fingertips
just touching,
minds intertwined.
These are wicked thoughts.
Psychotic?
Maybe...
Pathetic?
Indeed.
A kiss can only mean one of three things, friendship, passion or betrayal. So what was this my friend? DO you have any idea?
What an evening, one of the best - just like at the beginning, something we seemed to have lost along the way. Just to sit and drink and talk
and drink and laugh
and feel sad
and drink and talk some more
and feel happy again.
One long continuous disjointed thread of conversation, discussion and argument, shutting out the outside world and the people around us.
But that was your magic. You drew me in with your storytelling, painting pictures, making it real. You held my attention, enclosed my mind, left me h
This is a whisper away from the edge.
That familiar breath on the back of my neck
Saying 'come...'
Watch the careful face shatter now,
Dust pooling on the floor
Ash after the fire
'Come back
To the place where the power and pain
And the heat and the cold
Congeal'
Tangled images spin backwards in time
Wringing illusions of choice,
Vision is blurred to a single sound
And emotion cramped at the core.
With my head on your shoulder
You whisper despair in my hair.
She stands on a wire
Balancing with care
Her body bears scars of childbirth
Her mind, wounds of marriage,
Every line and fold upon her face
The map of melted dreams
That slid effortlessly through her fingers,
Fastforwarding now.
And she wants to cry out
To the close and the same
"Act now.
For whilst others build normal lives
You become deadened
By the daily drip of the commonplace
Pretending validity in
Pursuit of a future that's already putrid,
And the pill of convention.
But you've no idea
Of the speed you are travelling
Or how short the distance."
Her voice is hushed
And her eyes remain silent,
Watching them moulded
Electronic Communication by ThoughtFox, literature
Literature
Electronic Communication
Electronic Communication
In this nearly world
Of reality and shadows
I talk to friends...
Foreign language
Mystic symbols
Stifled senses
Closed communication.
Some of you I've never seen
Wouldn't recognise your sound
Will never touch or kiss you
Lunatic, lover or poet...
Some, I knew your faces
The turn and lilt of voice..
One or two, I've held your hand
And cried real tears with you.
Then there are those I can't remember
How you look or sound..
The tap, tap, tap of fingers
Forms images in mind
But this lifeline of communication
Is broken with a click.
Come for me
Come for me and only me
With no-one else to see.
Sunlight through the branches.
Softly touch and softly probe
Give life for just a moment
Take time suspended in confusion
And keep it all so clear.
With silence here and thoughts unravelled
The right to be or not
The warmth so teasing, finger soft
Nibbling and stroking.
So simple now, so really true.
So lift the layers, come for me.
Now only in the moment, let me keep
This deep essential honesty.
Two
There are two of us
I've always known
No pretence.
She has always been, this other.
She was alone, before.
So I split us,
Different names -
Leaving her to find her freedom.
I watched, I waited
Intrigued and overawed.
I've tried to hide her.
I even killed her,
Buried her and marked the grave.
Odd then, she's back here now,
Self-centred female
Living in the moment
Past haunting constantly.
Forging forward
Trashing boundaries
She does not see or understand.
Or maybe she does.
She deals in signs and omens,
Reads nuances and metaphors,
Lives away from reality
In a place that's very real.
And yet not.
Her emotions ar
Desperate Delusion
This is a troubled place to be
Where light and dark merge into shade
This is a troubled place to be
Right there, then gone, now lost.
This is the dark pit
Where hope has sunk
And the phoenix burnt in the flames.
This is the place of delusion and shadows
Where trust shifts and moments are lost:
Where hints are whispered and hissed,
And illusions are twisted and torn.
This is the place between Hamlet and Lear
Where self-doubt, ambiguity walk.
Yet somewhere in the close dark fear...
A brief light, a glimpse, an outstretched hand...
I fail to hold it
Feel it
Make it real
Was this from a happier place?
Or is
Two
There are two of us
I've always known
No pretence.
She has always been, this other.
She was alone, before.
So I split us,
Different names -
Leaving her to find her freedom.
I watched, I waited
Intrigued and overawed.
I've tried to hide her.
I even killed her,
Buried her and marked the grave.
Odd then, she's back here now,
Self-centred female
Living in the moment
Past haunting constantly.
Forging forward
Trashing boundaries
She does not see or understand.
Or maybe she does.
She deals in signs and omens,
Reads nuances and metaphors,
Lives away from reality
In a place that's very real.
And yet not.
Her emotions ar
Come for me
Come for me and only me
With no-one else to see.
Sunlight through the branches.
Softly touch and softly probe
Give life for just a moment
Take time suspended in confusion
And keep it all so clear.
With silence here and thoughts unravelled
The right to be or not
The warmth so teasing, finger soft
Nibbling and stroking.
So simple now, so really true.
So lift the layers, come for me.
Now only in the moment, let me keep
This deep essential honesty.
Electronic Communication by ThoughtFox, literature
Literature
Electronic Communication
Electronic Communication
In this nearly world
Of reality and shadows
I talk to friends...
Foreign language
Mystic symbols
Stifled senses
Closed communication.
Some of you I've never seen
Wouldn't recognise your sound
Will never touch or kiss you
Lunatic, lover or poet...
Some, I knew your faces
The turn and lilt of voice..
One or two, I've held your hand
And cried real tears with you.
Then there are those I can't remember
How you look or sound..
The tap, tap, tap of fingers
Forms images in mind
But this lifeline of communication
Is broken with a click.
She stands on a wire
Balancing with care
Her body bears scars of childbirth
Her mind, wounds of marriage,
Every line and fold upon her face
The map of melted dreams
That slid effortlessly through her fingers,
Fastforwarding now.
And she wants to cry out
To the close and the same
"Act now.
For whilst others build normal lives
You become deadened
By the daily drip of the commonplace
Pretending validity in
Pursuit of a future that's already putrid,
And the pill of convention.
But you've no idea
Of the speed you are travelling
Or how short the distance."
Her voice is hushed
And her eyes remain silent,
Watching them moulded
This is a whisper away from the edge.
That familiar breath on the back of my neck
Saying 'come...'
Watch the careful face shatter now,
Dust pooling on the floor
Ash after the fire
'Come back
To the place where the power and pain
And the heat and the cold
Congeal'
Tangled images spin backwards in time
Wringing illusions of choice,
Vision is blurred to a single sound
And emotion cramped at the core.
With my head on your shoulder
You whisper despair in my hair.
A kiss can only mean one of three things, friendship, passion or betrayal. So what was this my friend? DO you have any idea?
What an evening, one of the best - just like at the beginning, something we seemed to have lost along the way. Just to sit and drink and talk
and drink and laugh
and feel sad
and drink and talk some more
and feel happy again.
One long continuous disjointed thread of conversation, discussion and argument, shutting out the outside world and the people around us.
But that was your magic. You drew me in with your storytelling, painting pictures, making it real. You held my attention, enclosed my mind, left me h
I carry your words
on my shoulder
and you in my head
almost all
of the time.
I would not choose
to be
this way.
Late at night
I pretend
you are here,
leading to
some interesting fantasies
which leave me weak
and marked.
And I imagine
you curled
close and safe
our fingertips
just touching,
minds intertwined.
These are wicked thoughts.
Psychotic?
Maybe...
Pathetic?
Indeed.
She slid Alice-like onto the beach watching the buildings and people tower above her, shrinking her. Laying flat out she felt the pebbles making little round hollows in her back and pushing into her spine with exquisite pain pleasure, distracting, distracting. The great black hole in the pit of her stomach was drawing her in and she would collapse into it, emerging as something different.
She had been here before, with someone else. A memory drifting across the circle of time, she could feel his body breathing life into her, shut her eyes and remember, freeze time for just a second.
'No push it away, its gone now, leave it, leave it'
The b
I do not love you as much as I would like to because you wouldn't be able to appreciate the simple joys of old Polaroids, found notes, or standing outside in a fresh snowfall. You couldn't read deep and meaningful books in Border's cafe while sipping on hot chocolate and watching artists create beautiful drawings out of oil pastels. You couldn't love cobblestones. You wouldn't understand why I used to believe in third eye kisses, and you didn't appreciate Little Miss Sunshine, so I know you wouldn't appreciate Running With Scissors. You'd probably just laugh because the kid was gay. You'd want to live in the sixties for the VW buses, and I'd
A kiss can only mean one of three things, friendship, passion or betrayal. So what was this my friend? DO you have any idea?
What an evening, one of the best - just like at the beginning, something we seemed to have lost along the way. Just to sit and drink and talk
and drink and laugh
and feel sad
and drink and talk some more
and feel happy again.
One long continuous disjointed thread of conversation, discussion and argument, shutting out the outside world and the people around us.
But that was your magic. You drew me in with your storytelling, painting pictures, making it real. You held my attention, enclosed my mind, left me h
Seamless days..distorted time..blurring of reality and priority..Autumn into Winter. Thoughts which run away and hide, ideas which infiltrate and burn, concerns which melt and fade, adding to the dust. No sense of loss or gain just an endless ebb and flow....a dreamlike continuum of intention. And rested. Shift to restless.